Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Ive never had an eating disorder but ive had an issue with a weight all my life. Ive always been known as the “skinny one” but people are cruel and can use this against you. Ive been called anorexic loads of times and it used to upset me so much. I thought it had stopped but it hadn’t the only thing that’s change from 2 years ago to now is people are going behind my back and saying it. A few weeks ago a girl i don’t really talk to once said to my friend “oh the anorexic one?” At one point i even started to believe it. This is why i really want to raise awareness for eating disorders so people no what one is instead of saying anyone who’s skinny has one because that’s not true. Because of people saying this to me i began to hate the way i looked. The most common thing is having people put there two fingers around my wrist and say “omg your arms so skinny” i laugh of course, there my “friends” after all but really it hurts be deeply inside. The same people have said before “you haven’t got any fat on you your just skin and bones haha” and again i laugh but they don’t realise how much it upsets me. About 2 years ago i stood in front of the mirror in my bikini as i was planning on wearing it on holiday and just burst into tears. I could never show my stomach, i have been trying ever so hard to put on weight but i find it so difficult, luckily my stomach don’t look bad now but my arms, i cant stand my arms there discussing, there bone. My wrists i hate them i hate my back. I hate my neck. I hate my chest. I hate most parts of me. But there’s not much help out there for people like me. And i don’t feel like there ever will be. But if people knew what a eating disorder really was then maybe they wouldn’t say stuff like that to people like me. All i can do is keep trying. Stay Strong.